One of the hardest parts about having this disease is the feeling of being all alone. Even though I know I can talk to my family and friends about all things thyroid, I know that they cannot possibly understand exactly how I feel because they aren't experiencing it.
I am hyper aware of this fact, because I used to feel the same way about certain things. For example, depression. I could never understand it. How could someone possibly sleep all day and not really care about their jobs, their lives, their children? I didn't understand why they couldn't just wake up each morning determined to have a good day and do it. Positive thinking, try it!
Now I know. Now I fully understand. It's so frustrating when I am exhausted, or irritable, and I want to be productive. I tell my body to just get up and get busy. But I can't. And I know that the people around me might just be feeling the same way I used to feel. They may be thinking "get over it already!"
With that being said, I am so thankful that I have my sister through this. She has been so supportive and so engaged in my struggle with My Goiter. She has spent countless hours reading books with me, asking questions and just talking to me about the struggles that I have faced. I know she gets it because she has faced her own struggles with depression. (Yes, this is where my mistaken philosophy was founded). While she is happy and doing well now, she hasn't forgotten her struggles and I believe that contributes to why she is so supportive of me. I now understand better the struggles that she went through and I honestly think that My Goiter has brought us closer as sisters.
So today I am looking at the glass as half full and thanking My Goiter for something positive!
4 more days until my consultation.......
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